rechord the melodies

exam results are always released in christmas week, which sucks. if it comes after christmas, the uncertainty kills. if it comes before christmas, you are depressed.

went to collect my assignment earlier on, and saw piles of exam scripts on her desk. i got a poor grade for my history assignment again (oh what’s new)…only its worse because i actly felt confident for this one. need to put that disappointment aside for southeast asian lit tmr.

this sem has the hardest modules by far, i think. except the mod on historiography which i took last year. but at least im learning..

well, after my exams, i should like to read gg marquez’s a hundred years of solitude and milan kundera’s the unbearable lightness of being, along with bill bryson’s notes from a small island, to prepare myself. am i being too ambitious?

at a time like this, all you can do is pray. but sometimes, it is so hard to have faith that some people give it up altogether.

im very sleepy, but i haven’t finished studying.

if endgame and arcadia don’t come out for the exam tomorrow, im absolutely dead. 50% of the grade is already B-, which means, if i want to get at least a B overall, i will need an A- for tmr’s exam to balance it out. sigh. why am i doing so poorly this sem? it’s most upsetting. again, the module for which i put most effort in turns out to be the module with the poorest grades. such a joke. happened all my life for history, then finally when my history grades turn out average, my lit takes a tumble. suck.

it disturbs me that my grades this sem have been lowest amongst my lit friends, when in the past we were on par. either they’ve been mugging harder than me and improving, or my writing has taken a slide. i mean, if i’d always sucked, fine. but i feel like i’ve been left behind.

not a good feeling.

im frightened for tomorrow’s paper in a way i haven’t been for a long time. since i entered the u, i’ve kept relatively abreast of work, mostly out of thankfulness and relief at being admitted at all. but now, i find this tcm module far too difficult, the doubt and anxiety is killing me. it also doesn’t help that tomorrow’s exam is weighted at 100%, which doesn’t allow any screw-ups. my nerves are so frazzled i can’t study.

well at least there’s the tribal fusion playlist for some company.

posting this here instead of the main blog because i want the hafla announcement to stay on the top page for as long as possible..

omg i got an A+ for my mediaeval lit assignment! this is a really nice touch after the B- from contemporary lit. i think i got the lowest for contemp lit essay because i didn’t see any Cs around, and honestly, if you’re doing lit as a major and you get C in your second year, it’s beyond bad. the only way to get that is if you handed up late or if you handed up a one-page essay. nevermind im just very happy about mediaeval lit now:)) oh ok apparently some people got F for contemp lit because they plagiarised…which is just stupid of them la. even a badly written essay will get you at least a C+ or a B- (mine), not an F. so don’t plagiarise no matter how tempting it is!

now, intro to traditional chinese medicine…that’s a C or D for sure. why didn’t i opt to pass/fail it when i had the chance to a month ago? now i have to accept the consequences of thinking too highly of myself. sigh.