rechord the melodies

it’s the 20th of august today, which marks 2 months of continuous messaging between pg and i. i don’t know why i bother remembering such milestones, perhaps it was just easy to remember when it started – june concert.

this conversation continued despite all my fears that it might end because of the odd meet-ups like tennis and badminton and all that. the messaging started off pretty well, with us replying each other every other day. then there was what i termed ‘public-transport-messaging’ because it appeared that his replies always came at times when you know that he was going for lessons or returning home from school. and the intervals got longer yet because of his tendency to give people the ‘pg-treatment’, and having my pride means i just have to give him the pg-treatment back, so yes, the interval has now increased to half a week. thank God for school, because it distracts me from the long wait.

i can’t exactly say i got to know him better through the messages over the past two months, but it appears that im beginning to like him more as a regular person and less as a person-whom-i-want-a-relationship-with. i see this as progress, because it means i can really try to stop liking him. you know how repression (i.e. declaring confidently ‘i don’t like him anymore!’) often rebounds on oneself, because the more you put your efforts into pretending it doesn’t exist, the more you think about it and nothing gets done. but this way, letting nature take its course and letting my heart go wherever it feels fit to go, it feels quite good, somehow. there’s less tugging at my heart-strings now, and i should say i quite eagerly await the time when i can go ‘no strings attached!’

but yes, even if i don’t like him as i used to, i still nurse a huge soft spot for him, in almost the same way i have a soft spot for ian, except with greater intensity. so here’s to many more months of smsing.

:)