hard of hearing
i finally understand the despair that people get when they’re losing one of their senses. that despair is crippling, makes you lose your appetite and basically makes you feel like you just want to shut the world out.
fortunately, im not at that stage yet, but i am getting a taste of it. this mysterious eardrum infection from whence it came i know not is irritating the goodness out of me. everything sounds so muffled, i just feel like pulling my ears out. but, while foreign sounds are muffled, bodily sounds like my swallowing of saliva and the blood pumping through my veins are amplified. it felt so strange, it still does. but i guess im getting used to the muffled sounds and amplified noises.
thank God that this is only temporary, provided i heal completely. i can’t imagine what life would be like without my sense of hearing. it’d be unbearable, especially because i love music, even though im not fantastic at it. please please heal now. i want my sense of hearing back!
